Ready

Wednesday, September 1, 2010

"If there were no schools to take the children away from home part of the time, the insane asylums would be filled with mothers. " E.W. Howe


I'm not exactly anxious to leave my youngest at preschool for the first time, but . . . I kind of am. I know he will love it, just like his big brother did and does. I know he will be nurtured and cared for. I know he will learn things I haven't thought to teach him. I know he will make friends. And, I know that I need a break.


That is hard for me to admit. I love being a stay-at-home mom. I have a certain pride about "only" using sitters for my part time work. "Its not like I'm going to get my nails done!" I often say. Well, sometimes (maybe) I do goof off, just a little, but mostly, I use my time away from the kids to work hard, so that I can get back to the kids. I miss them, and I want to be around them. Being with them is my favorite part of the day. But lately, the days just seem sooooooooo loooooooooooooonnnnnngggggggggg.

Here is the truth: I love my kids, but it is not going to hurt me as much as I once thought it would, to leave them in someone else's care. I'm running out of ideas. I'm tired, and so are they. We need a change of pace. We need structure. We need someone else to be in charge, for at least six hours a week.

Someone else to be in charge . . . oh, how dreamy.


And the dream will become reality, one week from today.

Not that I'm counting the days, or anything.


Before I go, it occurred to me that this is all pretty self-centered thinking. I should say a prayer (and buy a gift?) for those dear souls who feel called to teach our little ones during the day. Because, truly, it must be a calling.

This one is from the Book of Common Prayer:



O Eternal God, bless all schools, that they may be lively centers for sound learning, new discovery, and the pursuit of wisdom; and grant that those who teach and those who learn may find you to be the source of all truth; through Jesus Christ our Lord. Amen.
Amen!!


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5 Responses to “Ready”

  1. I am right there with you, I feel a little bad that I don't think there will be tears for my first time pre-schoolers. For the first time in months I will have no children and no workers at my house - ahhh 3 hours of quiet. I won't know what to do with myself.

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  2. Love the quote! I have always said school was meant for mothers like me :) I'm the type who needs a break and am better for it. My kids are too. It took a while to drop the guilt of that and be thankful for the benefits of school.

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  3. hear hear! 6 more days until Campbell get to go to school. I cannot wait for the break.

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  4. Yay for preschool!! Says the mother of just one child, so go ahead and slap me, I know! :) We stay at home mamas all need a break, and we're better for it. Madeline started her 3/week program yesterday, and I had an extra pep in my step all afternoon after having a 3 hour window to do the things I wanted to get done. I felt guilty for just a few seconds, but then I realized how rejuvinated I was when I saw her. I'm enjoying it while it lasts b/c come Dec., I'll have a newborn again. Hope Little Guy loves school as much as his big brother! :)

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  5. Yay for preschool!! Says the mother of just one child, so go ahead and slap me, I know! :) We stay at home mamas all need a break, and we're better for it. Madeline started her 3/week program yesterday, and I had an extra pep in my step all afternoon after having a 3 hour window to do the things I wanted to get done. I felt guilty for just a few seconds, but then I realized how rejuvinated I was when I saw her. I'm enjoying it while it lasts b/c come Dec., I'll have a newborn again. Hope Little Guy loves school as much as his big brother! :)

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