This May Take Some Time

Monday, November 4, 2013

"I just want to cocoon this weekend. Stay home and get things done around the house," I told my husband. I started on Friday afternoon, hanging pictures that have been leaning against the wall since we moved in three months ago. What a satisfying feeling, settling in. 

We watched football, and I thought that would be a great time to also upload a bunch of photos. (You know, it's hard for me to sit still and do one thing at a time.) While I had my phone plugged in and syncing with my computer, it alerted me to a software update. I decided to proceed, since we were at home for the afternoon and I wouldn't need my phone for a while anyway.

24 hours later, I'm still waiting for it to activate. 

This has caused me a great deal of fuming stress. It's also made me see how ridiculously attached I am to technology. Well, I don't know if that's true. I like technology and how it works in my life. What I'm ridiculously attached to is efficiency. Yes, that's it. If one plate drops - oh, I can't stand it. The thought of having to go to the Verizon store on a Sunday afternoon or Monday morning . . . well, you might as well start pulling off my fingernails. It was not part of my plan. It will delay other things I wanted to do. Never mind that I'm due an upgrade and I will probably walk out of there with a new phone. It will take time, and I don't like to waste time or use time in ways I wasn't anticipating. Yep, I'm ridiculously attached to my plan, my expectations, and my version of how the days should go.

Whew. That's kind of a selfish and ugly thing to admit. 

It's not that the phone situation isn't frustrating. It is. I think even Jesus would hit the buttons a few extra times like, "Come on, stupid thing!" Okay, maybe not. But I bet Peter would. I bet Peter would shut it down and restart it at least twice. With gusto. Then perhaps, with Jesus's guidance, he would realize that - hey, it's a phone. It's not that big of a deal. It's the change of plans I'm really most upset about. And maybe there is a reason I need to get off track. 

As I write this, the boys are up in the playroom blasting a CD from Vacation Bible School. "Powerful and strong to save, Halleluiah, our God reigns. Yes our God reigns."

Not me. God. God reigns. And yes it is such a little thing - the phone - but it's like a big blaring neon sign for me today: Not my plans, but yours, God. Not my will, but yours. Wrestle this need to control away from me, and teach me what is really important.

So, I'm off to the Verizon store at some point today or tomorrow. If someone witnesses to me there, then well - we'll know what this was about. 

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5 Responses to “This May Take Some Time”

  1. it's those little things, rrrrrrrr......

  2. Oh, the bane and beauty of technology. Aren't these little reminders great so we do our own reset in our lives? Hope it all went well!

  3. SO true... thanks for sharing this. I think you speak for lots of us whose agenda is too, too important to us.

  4. Ha ha! That made me laugh at the end.

  5. Fun, true and wise words throughout your post! Thank you for the reminder that the little things should not become the big things in our daily life. God reigns and God is in charge! may we all get out of the way of ourselves today and let God do His thing! Visiting you from Soli Deo Gloria.
    Blessings, Mary!